The family doctor entered my husband’s hospital room. He wore a smile and when his gaze met mine, I knew that today was a day of small victories..He commented that we had to stop spending our holidays this way. He was referring to last Thanksgiving being spent in the hospital and now, Valentine’s Day.
Earlier, when I entered into his room, “Happy Valentine’s Day”, was the first words out my husband’s mouth. I fought back the tears as he apologized for not having anything for me. It was the first Valentine’s Day in 19 years that he hadn’t gotten me a card or gift.
Instead, I remembered the first Valentine’s Day present that he sent. He was the first man that ever sent me flowers. On a late Saturday morning I was busy doing my chores when my mother called me out of my bedroom. When I came into the kitchen, a bouquet of red carnations in a green vase was setting on the kitchen counter. My mom was smiling when I asked if they were for me. I ran to the front room window in time to see the florist’s van pulling out of the driveway. I ran back to the flowers and searched for the card. Deep in the bouquet, I found a it. I recognized the handwriting and I was enthralled because it was from him….
After lunch, the doorbell rang again. A different florist brought a couple more deliveries but I wasn’t very interested in those flowers even if one was from a “secret admirer”. I only had eyes from those carnations. They were from “him“…
That what I was thinking when I gave my husband a big kiss and told him that I had all the Valentine’s Day gifts that I ever wanted. All I wanted and needed for Valentine’s Day was that he was feeling better…
I reminded him that we had a nice dinner at one of our favorite restaurants last week. I mentioned at that time that it was probably our Valentine’s Day dinner. I don’t know why I made that comment, but that is what I thought. Maybe I said that because it was such an enjoyable evening or maybe deep inside I knew that our likelihood of having a Valentine’s dinner was slim, I don’t know.
The rest of the afternoon I sat and read to him. Usually when I read to him he falls to sleep. I was pleased to see that he drifted off. While he was sleeping, I went over to see the Integrative doctor about my husband receiving his weekly IV of Vitamin C. He was coming out of the door and said that he was on his way to my husband’s room.
He visited with my husband and checked him over thoroughly. He agreed that Vitamin C IV would be benfitial and that he wanted to check out his Vitamin D level as well.
He reiterated the need for my husband to not become stressed or concerned over anything and as he was getting ready to leave, he called me over, held my hand and my husband’s. He closed his eyes and prayed. He thanked God for bringing my husband and I into his life. He gave thanks for my husband’s life and the good that has come into this world because he was in it. He expressed his gratitude for being chosen to be my husband’s doctor and asked God to help my husband to not stress over any relationships, any finances, or any hurts or pains in his present or past. As he said, “Amen”, he gave us both a hug and told us to be well. Tears were rolling down my face and my husband’s. It meant the world to us that this quiet man humbly thanked God for us….As he turned to leave, you could feel a sweet peace and a loving presence in the room. It was a wonderful Valentine’s Day present….
The shadows on the hospital wall said that sunset was approaching and I knew that I needed to get fuel before I went home tonight. I gave my husband a kiss and I told him what I needed to do and that I needed to go before it got really dark out.
He told me that it was alright and that he just wanted to go back to sleep. I sat on the bed and said that I wanted him to call me if he needed me to come back and spend the night with him. I told him that I wanted to be with him as long as he needed me…He reassured me that he was fine and all he needed was to go back to sleep…
As I was leaving, the lyrics of a song came to me. I had to think for minute exactly from where or which songs were these words. Then I remembered. It was a song that I sang for my audition for the IU School of Music summer camp. (It got me in the camp) It was the same year of high school when my husband sent me the Valentine’s flowers. The song is from the musical “Oliver”…I purposed to go home and find the song. It surprised me to find that Melinda Doolittle sang it on “Idol”. She made the song come alive. (Please, overlook all of the “Idol” blather.)
This song expresses my heart on this Valentine’s Day….